Not Holding Back...

I was asked yesterday what the problem has been lately in regards to my blog, whether or not it had become bothersome. To set the story straight, no, it hasn't become bothersome, however, I have had a definite problem with blogging lately. I believe that it's because I feel pressured into always being positive and uplifting whenever I blog and I'm not always feeling that way. I'm afraid if I blog my true feelings on the days in which I'm not feeling good, you may not want to hear it. However, I think that I need to get it out and this form of journaling will probably do more good than anything if I share my true feelings with you. So...hear goes. From now on I'll be brutally honest with my raw feelings, not holding back.

Today I stayed home from work because the neuropathy in my feet was hurting so bad that it literally hurt to walk across the floor. Later in the day I managed to get to the store and bought some soft slippers so my feet are feeling somewhat better. I'm about to take all my meds and go to bed, but it'll be a restless night (as usual). I toss and turn all night long, but it hurts so bad to just roll over at night that I actually get up out of bed turn around, and then lay back down. Fun huh? Not so much. Especially if I'm really tired. But the alternative is laying in pain on one side or the other and I'd rather get up and reposition myself. I can't lay on my back at all and laying on my stomach just doesn't feel comfortable either. When John's snoring gets to be too much for me (since my sleep is so broken up), I gather my pillows and lay out on the couch. I usually spend about 4-5 nights a week on the couch :( Believe me, John feels AWFUL about it and is working on trying out a sleep apnea machine to help with the snoring issue. I hate to bring it up because he feels so badly.

Well, off to bed for now. I promise to not hold out anymore. I hope to get back to blogging on a regular basis :)

Peace to you all ♥ Love, Genie