Now that I've figured out how to attach pictures, you may see more of me than you'll want too! LOL :) Today was my first day on my new chemotherapy. It's called Gemcitabine (Gemzar for short) and apparently it's supposed to be way easier on me than Avastin & Taxol were, so yay! My new schedule is 2 weeks on, 1 week off, 2 weeks on, 1 week off, etc.

Yesterday was a really hard day and after digesting everything that Dr. Hui said, I got a good night's sleep and had a very good day today. I woke up with a purpose this morning and that was to fight this damn cancer as hard as I can. Without rehashing everything that was said yesterday, I can tell you that my cancer counts (the tumor marker) has gone up from 40 to 50 to 60 to now it's at 118. Dr. Hui said that she's going to skip the scans this time around because she already knew what they were going to say. At first I took that as...."there's no hope", but after speaking w/Luanne, she (as she usually does) helped me interpret it as how Dr. Hui probably meant it and that was..."I already know that your numbers are up, so your tumor has grown, and I don't want to put you through unnecessary radiation & have you laying on your back for a long period of time to have those scans done. Since it hurts to lay on those tables, I don't want to put you in any more pain at this time."

So instead of dwelling on my life, I helped the man sitting next to me see the brighter side of life and showed him that the power of positive thinking really does help. Paul, if you can hear me out there, NEVER give up!! Keep the faith and you'll be around for a very long time. May God Bless You ♥

And Sonia, thank you for visiting with me today, I appreciate your friendship so much :) And thank you for my beautiful tulips & t-shirt, I love them. Too bad you weren't in the picture with me.

Peace to you all ♥ Love, Genie

P.S. I think when I attached the picture I messed up the format or something and so my paragraphs are weird. Oh well, I tried :)