Cancer Has Spread...

WARNING ~ this may be a long one.

I've stopped crying and now it's time to move forward. A couple days ago I emailed Dr. Hui and told her about my hip, so she ordered xrays and was glad to tell me that there was nothing broken, but that she would still like for me to have another bone scan done to see how everything was going. Today I went for my bone scan and she called in the afternoon with my results. I could tell in her voice that she didn't want to deliver this news to me, but she was obligated. The cancer has spread. I asked her how bad it was and after hesitating a moment, she said that it had spread to my pelvis and my hip, that it was no wonder I was in so much pain. She wants me to go back to radiation (starting Monday) for another two weeks. She said that afterwards, we would reevaluate my situation and start a new chemotherapy treatment. She knows how bad my body reacted to radiation the last time, and that I've barely recovered from the nausea and vomiting! It's only been about two weeks of me being vomit free and now I've got to go back to that place?! OMG!! Please Lord help me through the next couple weeks, I need your help!!

During all of this, my sweet Jordan has been going through depression. She's obviously carrying a lot on her shoulders these days and the counselor at school thought that perhaps she should see somebody. John and I took her for a family session yesterday, but she will start her one on one appointments with a child psychiatrist on Tuesday. Poor sweetheart, I wish I could ease her pain. She's not only dealing with a parent who has cancer, but she's a perfectionist and if everything doesn't go exactly right, she has a hard time dealing with it. Life is sort of upside down with her lately and so my heart really goes out to her.

Jordan's favorite show in the world is Glee and she eats, breaths and sleeps Glee. I don't mind, because it's obviously making her happy. Well, the cast of the tv show is coming to Arco Arena (here in Sacramento) in May. I know how much she would LOVE to see them in person, so we were planning on purchasing her a ticket for her birthday, but the tickets don't go on sale for another week or so. However, tonight I got a text from Sonia that they were selling advanced tickets to American Express holders starting today! Well, thanks to my wonderful friend for helping me out (since I don't have one of those cards), we were able to purchase tickets!! This is the only reason I'm not crying right now, because I'm so excited for Jordan.

Please continue to pray for me, I know your prayers help. I appreciate all of the prayer chains that I'm on and I know that the Lord is listening.

Peace to you all ♥ Love, Genie