Mind Control...

It sure is a blustery morning and I'm glad to be indoors at the moment and not on my way to work :) I'm actually really missing work these days, but hopefully after some radiation, perhaps I can return to work for a couple days next week. Hopefully the treatment will work on the pain. Let's just hope for that. Over the past couple months I've been averaging about 2-3 days a month! Some people would say...WOOHOO! However, lack of work = lack of pay :( so it's not all that good. I would prefer to be healthy and working these days!

After speaking with Luanne, she told me about an article that describes in detail how a person can actually cause themselves to have nausea and vomiting without any real reason whatsoever, basically saying that it's all in your head. Well...ever since I was told I had to return to radiation, I've felt a little sick to my stomach. I haven't had chemo for two weeks and I haven't started radiation yet so there's no reason for the sick feeling. However, the past two nights I've gotten sick and vomited. I am now trying my best to think HAPPY thoughts of radiation and how they're going to radiate a completely different area, and how wonderful the people are that work there, so that I am not sick. Mind over matter, right? I know how powerful the mind can be, so it's just a matter of convincing myself that everything is going to be okay :) Here's to today's radiation!! Yahoo :)

My therapist the other day suggested that I start a video for my children. Originally this blog was supposed to be for them, however, it's turned out to be more for family and friends than just for them. So, I'm about to embark on a new adventure of video messages to my children. I'm a little apprehensive just because I can't stand having my picture taken or being on film because I just don't like the look or sound of myself these days :( I know, that doesn't sound good, but it's true. However, it's not for me, it's for them, so I'm going to suck it up and just get it done. I would LOVE to have had something like this from my mother and now I just wish I could hear her voice. Well, hopefully they'll appreciate this video and remember me how I am today and not how it'll be towards the end of my life. I still need to figure out how to piece everything together (like how to make a continual video and not just a lot of little ones) and where I'll set up my "studio". I'm sure you won't actually see the video, however, I'll let you know how it's going.

Peace to you all ♥ Love, Genie