Funk...

I've been in a funk lately and I guess it's normal considering what I'm going through. I try to get up every morning and put on a happy face, ready to conquer the day, but some days are more difficult than others. Also, the loss of my mother-in-law is huge in my household, making for a lot of frowny faces :( Although it's been almost two weeks now, it's still very fresh.

My back has been aching more so lately than ever before. I've had to increase my pain meds, which kind of scares me a little bit. I relate pain meds to cancer, so whenever I have to take more, I naturally assume the cancer is growing in my back. I sure hope not. I should hear back any day now regarding whether or not I'm having surgery. My feelings are mixed, I don't know which way I'm leaning towards. Surgery? Or no surgery?

Today I wish I could take away the hurt that John is feeling. He misses his mom so much, I can see the pain written all over his face. It's not normal to see my husband so sad and I wish I could take it all away. I love you John and if you can keep your mind and your heart open to anything, maybe your mom will come visit you someday. All you have to do is BELIEVE.

Peace to you all ♥ Love, Genie