No Worries...

Not much to blog today, although, if I don't post something in a couple days I'm afraid some of you may worry so I thought I would check in. Today was chemo #11 (middle of 4th cycle) and it went well. John was with me and it was a short one, only 2 hours. I got some good advice from my nurse for my upcoming Bone Scan. It's scheduled for Friday, 3/05 and my CT Scan is for Monday, 3/08. I'm not as nervous about the CT Scan as I am about the Bone Scan. The Bone Scan is very long (approx. 45 minutes) and I must lay still. If I move a muscle, we have to do it over again. I remember that they strap you down on a flat table. Since the cancer is in my tail bone area, it's no wonder it hurt like crazy last time. Mary suggested that I take a couple Vicodin for the pain in addition to the Valium to ease my claustrophobia. I don't necessarily like being so drugged up, but I must get through these scans and if that's what it takes, then so be it. I'll have a driver (obviously) and I'll be in good hands.

My friend that I met the first day named Jeannie, stopped by during treatment today. It was good to see her. I've seen her a couple times since, she always wants to know how everything is going. I don't see her all the time because some treatments are on Thursdays and some are Fridays. She's a Thursday girl. I keep meaning to ask her how often her "maintenance" treatments are and how long she was going before she went into maintenance. Also, when did her hair grow back. I have lots of questions, just keep forgetting to ask :( I guess I should use the cute little notepad and pen that Sonia brought me last week. It's a SF Giant's notepad & pen at that!! I did, however, add the cute little PINK boxing glove to my key chain that was also in the bag. She says we're gonna fight this thing and that I needed the proper equipment to do so :) Gosh, I love that girl, she's a trooper. I've met the wost wonderful survivors during this experience...I'm a very lucky girl.

Today I BELIEVE. Roberta brought me over the most beautiful cross that reads BELIEVE and "you are in my prayers" on the back. I do BELIEVE. Although the thought of the scans coming up absolutely terrifies me, I BELIEVE that the cancer is getting better. What scares me is that I don't want to get my hopes up too high, that's the old Genie. However, if I can just concentrate on the fact that it's not spreading, and that I know I feel the tumor shrinking & that my counts are going down, I know they will be good scans. I BELIEVE and I need to continue to keep God in my heart everyday...he is the key to healing me.

Peace to you all ♥ Love, Genie