Downer...

I don't like to write when I'm down in the dumps, I feel there's no use in complaining when I've got so much to live for. However, I know if I want to be true to myself and others, I need to paint an honest picture of what it's like to have cancer; that's what this blog is all about.

I've been down in the dumps for a few days now because I really miss my hair. I usually wear a hat because the wig is hot and sometimes itchy. Can you imagine losing your hair? If you've never gone through this (and I hope to God you never do), you'd have no idea what it was like. I had LOTS of hair, very thick, naturally wavy, usually cut short. My mom always loved my hair and I honestly didn't know how much I did too, until it was gone. I think I play with Johnny's hair a lot now because it's a lot like mine was.

Besides the hair, nausea has really been bothering me. It really sucks when you think you're going to throw up all day long. I still have only gotten sick once from chemo, but I don't know which is worse; being on the edge of your seat all day thinking that you're going to vomit, or actually doing it. Yuck. My stomach aches all day. I have anti-nausea meds (which I take), but there's times in between doses where it's really hard to tolerate. So, I spoke w/Dr. Hui and she referred me to Acupuncture Therapy. I have my first treatment Friday morning, then chemo Friday afternoon. Yay, what a day :) Sure hope it helps.

Sorry for the downer blog today, but like I said, sometimes I just need to paint a real picture.

I'm still praying everyday and thinking positive thoughts & with your help, we can fight this thing to the finish!!

Peace to you all ♥ Love, Genie